I'm sad. Depressed even. Stressed and Overburdened.

The thing is, though, is that its all because of other people. I have decided that I am too nice. I let people run all over me and I don't know how to say no. "sure I'll drive an hour away just to drop something off for you." "sure you can crash at my house." "why no, I don't have a life of my own and would love to spend the day running pointless errand for you." I swear this is my life and it is getting to the point where I never do anything for myself anymore. I'm always burdened by other people's problems and I worry....constantly. It is time, finally, to change my ways. If I am to succeed in life then I must make myself happy. Hopefully, this is not just a statement I made in a fit of thoughtfulness.

I will do well in school.
I will get into college with honorable scholarships.
I WILL make myself happy.
...and I will be there for my friends because even though they are always asking things of me...it makes me happy to see that I can help someone I care about.
Finally, I WILL forget about the past and about all the wrong guys I have chosen to put in my life.