I'm sad. Depressed even. Stressed and Overburdened.

The thing is, though, is that its all because of other people. I have decided that I am too nice. I let people run all over me and I don't know how to say no. "sure I'll drive an hour away just to drop something off for you." "sure you can crash at my house." "why no, I don't have a life of my own and would love to spend the day running pointless errand for you." I swear this is my life and it is getting to the point where I never do anything for myself anymore. I'm always burdened by other people's problems and I worry....constantly. It is time, finally, to change my ways. If I am to succeed in life then I must make myself happy. Hopefully, this is not just a statement I made in a fit of thoughtfulness.

I will do well in school.
I will get into college with honorable scholarships.
I WILL make myself happy.
...and I will be there for my friends because even though they are always asking things of me...it makes me happy to see that I can help someone I care about.
Finally, I WILL forget about the past and about all the wrong guys I have chosen to put in my life.

Mmmmk So one of my favorite vampire series (not Twilight cause that would be my #1 fave) is being turned into a TV Show. The show is called True Blood and it is based on the Southern Vampire Series by Charlain Harris. This is much more adult stuff than Twilight but i would totally recommend it!! It Premieres September 9th on HBO. here are some links if you want some more info.

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I would TOTALLY recommend reading the books the first one is called Dead Until Dark...i think lol there are eight books so far.

So once again Fay has decided to move back across the state. WooHoo!! No school tomorrow! That makes three days this week Thanks Fay!

ZOMG! I just found out that Barnes & Noble has decided to host a midnight release party for Breaking Dawn! Here is the website you can go on to find the party closest to you!

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I don't know about anyone else but I seriously can't wait until August 2nd!!

Well for the past five days i have been confined to room 6320 of Florida Hospital South. Apparently I have an extreme case of Mono....that includes Hepatitis A and Strep B.

I mean really could I have any more diseases at once? My whole body turned yellow and now I look like a little yellow alien. Stupid jaundice (means yellow), fewer than 5% cases of mono include jaundice and I guess i'm just so lucky to be included in that 5%... N O T.

Please keep my in your prayers. I'll be on the computer a lot since I'll be bed riden for the next 2 to 3 weeks.